LONG TIME NO POST

I know, I have been absent. It's been a very interesting 9 months. A lot has changed. A lot of change for the good, actually. I have been very hesitant to write at all, because of the things and who has access to this blog. I have nothing to hide though.

In March, AJ & I separated, and it was going to happen sooner or later. Our relationship had become very toxic & it was for the best that we have some time apart. I filed for divorce in April. Things are still pending.

In May, I found a small apartment for me and the kids. I had never been on my own, so I wasn't sure how I would or could afford my own place on my salary. I have been there ever since.

I have had a lot of ups & down, but my family & friends have been so increadably amazing. I can never repay them for what they have done. I have been apart from AJ for 8 months today, and let me tell you, my life is so much better. I am closer to my kids, my family, and most important God. I don't attend church often, but I have found God outside of church. Praying, and having the willingness has been the most important thing I have found. I have always had faith, but never put it to use. I have often wondered how I would get through the month with little to no money. God ALWAYS provides. Even at time when I am crying and have $5 in my bank account for 2 weeks and no gas in my car.

I hate that I have had a failed marriage, a second one, but at least I have my health & my kids. I do not lack for anything. I am not a failure as a person. I've been told to quit beating myself up over my past, and my bad decisions. It's okay, it will always be okay.

I am happy. I get lonely, but I am running again (ran 4.3 miles on Saturday), I am going back to school in the spring, and I have my meetings twice a week.

The kids are doing FANTASTIC, considering all they've been through. They are at a new school, and learning so much. They are tiny little spounges that keep learning and growing.

Gage turned 4 in August. He knows, days of the week, months of the year, all of his letters, sight reads, can spell, write all his letters, and is just becoming quite a little man. He is still quite attached to me, but he loves meeting new people and is still social.

Chloe, my little ham, is 2. She turned 2 in October. She is smart, smarter than Gage was at this age, funny, beautiful, and charms the pants off of everyone. She knows her ABC's, days of the week, a lot of sign language, thanks to yours truly. She loves pink & any kind of princess.

I wish I could think of more to write, but I'll leave it at that. :) Hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving! I am ready for Christmas!!

Gage




Being Mimi


Chloe & her Cousin

Pics!

Gage got this for Christmas. He wasn't really sure of it right away, but he loves making 'houses & barns'


They love bath time! (Can you tell?)




CHEEEESE!!!


SNOW?!?!? In Texas? Yes, twice!


From December, but still cute! StefaniMarcus.com


My new Swimsuit! She is such a ham!

New Job & Update

I keep forgetting to update, not that anyone reads. :P

I started my new job almost a month ago. It is going pretty well. I like the people and the job itself is relaxed but still interesting. I answer phones from students and they have the funniest questions or comments most days. I get a kick out of that.

Gage:
He has been challenging lately. He has been defiante and it has been really hard for me to get him under control. He is in the phase where everything is opposite of what you say. "You're dinner is not ready yet." "Yes it is." He wants me to snuggle with him at night. I do sometimes, but I feel if I do it every night he'll get used to it and I'll never sleep in my own bed.

Other than that he is a really fun kid. He is smart & loves Chloe...most of the time. He says the funniest things all the time too.

Chloe:
She is 15 months now and a ball of fun. She 'bee-bops' everywhere. That is what I call it. It's like she has a spring in her step. She is very sweet and has very wise eyes. She loves to snuggle and get this...she loves Daddy more than me. She went to him first yesterday, even though she saw me. I don't mind. I know it makes Adrean feel good. Gage never much cared for Adrean, so it's nice to have Chloe love him.

She is still nursing, a lot. :P Nights and weekends. We've been battling a mild stomach virus so she's upped her boo juice intake. She got it the worse and stayed home with Daddy last Friday.

Words she says:
Da - (daddy) --she says this the most. lol.
mama
ba (bite, ball, whatever context it applies to)
wa (walk)
boob
uh huh
no
bye bye

She does a lot of "ugh"ing.

Sign:
more
please
eat
waves

I haven't been that great at taking pictures lately so I have no new ones. Hopefully I can get some up soon.